Starting a blog has been lingering around my mind like a drunk at last call for longer than I care to admit. Having a place where I have a creative outlet that is just mine is exactly what this cat needs. But I also need motivation. Serious motivation. It’s a little too easy for me to spend my Saturday afternoon and evening slugging back wine and watching episode after episode of Dateline Mysteries. Don’t get me wrong. I work hard. I just like my downtime. Fair enough. But the amount of downtime I have is starting to concern me. I need a little project to throw myself into and shrink the sick amount of downtime I have.
On my drive to work today, I was thinking about what kind of stuff I could write for my blog. My brain, as usual, was unable to focus on one topic before flipping to another. The next one better than the other. When I suddenly I actually focused–on a lump ahead in the middle of the road. Road kill. Sure it could be a McDonald’s bag tossed out the window to careless teens, but I just knew it was road kill. Suddenly, my brain was intently focused on whatever was crushed on the road up ahead. If I could channel the intensity of that focus, I’m certain I could cure cancer. I try, in vain, to shift my focus. Nuh huh, says my brain, I want (need) to see this. As the lump approaches, I struggle to look away, even going as far as to attempt to shield my own eyes from the horror. But no, I clock it. Ahhhhhh, it’s a bunny. Crushed, broken, and open. Poor little soul.
I’ve seen so much road kill on the highways that you’d think a person would get used to it like lane lines on the road. But no. It’s disturbing each and every time you see an animal broken on the side of the road. It makes me dislike our modern culture. It makes me think about pain. It makes think about death. It makes me think about my own fragility. It makes me think about people murdered and their bodies tossed away. It makes me think about dignity in life and in death. It makes me uncomfortable.
Whoa, that’s getting heavy for a first post not to mention the start to the Thanksgiving weekend. So, I’m going to sign off for now as I need some serious downtime after all this work!